Bye 2012

It was 12 months ago when I blog about the top 10 memories I had. And now, here we are again, bidding goodbye to another year. It was so quick, time is very fast!

This coming year, 2013, I did a very hard decision – I am going to let go this blog. Yes, you read it write. This is going to be my last Blogger post, hopefully. For some reasons, I have to do this. For the best, I have to do this. I might write again, but I don’t know when. It is so hard for me to stop writing. It was like putting out all of my bones and telling me to walk. It has been my passion for years, my best friend when I don’t have someone to talk to, and my savior when I’m bursting of emotions and drama – it has been a very big part of my life. I’ve been trying to fit in to this kind of industry for I love this so much, I did my best to write so I can be a writer. I read a lot and learn a lot through writing. I am so sure I’m gonna miss this! Anyway, I don’t want to break out so let’s stop the drama.

You can still see this blog; I won’t delete or deactivate it. I want those memories to stay. At the end of this year and on my very last blog, I wanted to give my deepest and most sincere thank you to everyone who’s been a part of this experience. I know I’m not popular or so whatever, but I am thankful for the people who view my post, read it, interact with it and everything. To the who visited this blog from Philippines and all over the world, you made my blogger life alive! To followers and following, you gave me inspiration to continue this journey. To the topics that have been viewed by most people, I am flattered to myself for that. Ha-ha! And of course to blogger.com, I knew from the very beginning that it was a right decision to write through this website, without Blogger, this wouldn’t be possible. Last but not the least, to the Lord our God, who’s giving me the chance, opportunity and talent, thank you so much! To God be all the glory. 

Have a Healthy and prosperous new year everyone!

“Let Go and let God.”

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Reminiscing Dream High

I am so much in love with this drama's cast, affection, and hope. I am planning to watch the complete episode again on this coming semester break. I don't know what to write but I'd continue anyway. I don't know if it's because of my so much love for Kim Soo Hyun that I'm stuck on him or his this really attention catcher, even on Moon That Embraces the Sun. He's a good actor in a way that he can effortlessly portray the role and make us fall in love and the way he cries. It's not like any other actor, his tears are real and full of emotions. Okay, at this very moment, I don't know if I'm playing bias or what but he's really that good. Another points for his voice. As we know he's not that into singing, but singing is that into him. He's playing like a professional. I will marry him! Hahaha. Insane mode, is this really to show how I reminisced the drama or loving Kim Soo Hyun? Either.

Love is in the air!

mindmybusiness 

It's been a long time since I came around...

Home for me means being in a place where you feel warmth, love, comfort, and happiness. And I always call Valenzuela City a home for me because I grew up there and made a lot of memories. Also, people who are really close in my heart live there.

Yesterday, I went there to visit my alma mater. The yearbook of our batch was already released and I went to get my copy. I meet long time friends and talk, laugh, eat and more. We visit the High school building and a big change happened there. The school looks so good... and rich. Haha! New teachers, familiar faces, old routines and some places are still there with a bunch of memories we've left. It feels like it's been a long time. Two years since I graduated made a lot of difference. But it feels so good being back to the place you used to live. And I felt the same happiness I feel once again, with my friends and mentors who molded me to become a great person. I feel so blessed and I forgot my stress and problems for a couple of hours.

That's my alma mater, so proud!

When I got my yearbook and about to go home, I can't stop the excitement to touch and read some pages. The faces of my friends, peers, class mates, brothers and sisters - I missed them all! The forthcoming glance - oh, I can't say anything. I'm about to cry when I read it. Seriously. I remember my dreams and goals and the things I want to do in my life. And how it change me 2 years ago.

Some dreams might not be as perfect as what it is written in that forthcoming glance, but it touched me and put a heart on my ambitions. I'm glad it was written. And I'm glad I knew this people.

I feel so great.

mindmybusiness.

Disappointment

Sometimes there are times in life where you are too broke, fall into pieces, and no one even cares. Where all the people who you really trust puts you down. Who the people told that they are always there are gone. Life is like this. Disappointments are always around. You'll never know. Things may go really bad and you just have to deal with it. Because at the end of the day, you have no one to trust and no one to believe in to but yourself. So be strong.

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Reminiscing Life as Senior Year HS

Waking up early than the sun, cook your own breakfast, have a very cold water to take a bath to, and skipping this not-so-remote-but-so-far province (as they say). Then, going home late or sometimes not going home at all. This is my daily routine a year ago when I was still a senior student in high school. I did this five or six times a week. From this province, I take one and a half ride to school. It isn't normal, really. And it wasn't that easy. But I have to face the fact that what is happening and what will happen was because of my choice. I'd love to stay in the same institution for four years. I'd love to stay in the same institution for a reason.

Last saturday, my alma mater celebrated their heart warming Junior and Senior Prom night. Every year, alumnus and other people are allowed to witness the dances and performances they will made (except the party at night) but unfortunately, I wasn't able to attend and watch my schoolmates as they embraced one of the biggest night on their high school years. I still remember the whole day and night of my last prom. From the time that we arrived in Manila and get ready (I had my nail polished, hair and make up done and the most stunning yet simple gown and heels). Until the time that my friend arrived and gave me a free ride and we reached the event area. The whole night was awesome, fantastic, terrific and perfect. 

I really missed high school years. When I was in fourth year, I thought that was the hardest year of my life. Full of deadlines, heavy projects, assignments here and there, group activities, club meetings and agendas to meet. But looking on a deeper side, I see it as the happiest time where while having fun and giggles you can learn a lot. Not just in academe but in life.

I remember the first time where we had to shoot a film, I was third year. We really had no idea how. All we know is that we need to be someone as director, actors, writer and cameraman. They have to act and we have to record them. They need scripts to follow. I wrote them and I still have those scripts. The script was very unprofessional yet the result of film was good. In fourth year, we did it again. We made two short films for different subjects. One for Values, which is a short skit about fraternies (we had different topics) and the other one for Filipino IV, El Filibusterismo. The second is a big project for the whole section. It's our final requirement. I was able to write again the script but this time, I had another class mate who wrote some parts of the scripts. Still unprofessional, but the result of film is better. We had ideas, best actors and actresses, and techie persons who are good at filming stuffs. I really give lots of effort, time and patience. And I really missed the arguments, bonding moments, unexpectable happenings and of course the people who made the filming the best and unforgettable experience I ever had.

High school is not just fun, high school is where people had the chance to have a great story that they will cherished for the rest of their lives.

I REALLY MISSED BEING HIGH SCHOOL. But at the end of the day, the reality is that high school days already passed. And you don't have to regret it, you have to be happy, because one day in your life, you've been a high school student. And that's great.

In the end of this post I just want to remind everyone that, "Everything on this earth has its own time and its own season" (my friend says that, so credits). So have your season and enjoy while it lasts.

mindmybusiness

Happy 13th JAMLIsary!

Today is a special day for Jamli Poppers. For all we know, May 9, 2011 is our first Anniversary. And now, we are having our 13th monthsary for Jamli!

Actually, this is one of the unforgettable days that we, poppers, show how strong we are. We started tweeting from 7-9PM (but I started even before 6PM) where we include "WeWantJAMLIonTV" in every tweet. And it trended in the Philippines for almost 10 times! I counted how many tweets I had posted, it was 66 tweets including "WeWantJAMLIonTV" and many more RT's that I couldn't count. Poppers are amazing!

Also we won in the Kakulay Online Poll, here's the link. And we reached 62,003 likes on our facebook page. That's the reason why I keep on holding as a popper. I will never give up, and I won't stop believing! Someday, there's a chance for all of us. We have to believe that in God's time something will happen.

And for the big announcement that we are waiting for...

From ate Mily: This is not an ordinary celebration. Reminiscing the past has never been this playful. More than a get together, this is the ultimate dream of every popper. On August 2011, JamLi and the Poppers will enjoy a one of a kind event in a one of a kind manner. Watch out for the date as we all become masochists again. Sure, we will be in need of oxygen. Hearts and souls will bleed and turn yellow. So you better take the games we have seriously because you don’t want to miss this out. Once again, we are going Pop, Lock and Drop it!

HAVE FAITH!
Love,
Poppers

Mind my Business. Ü

Secret Garden

It was not planned to blog today. But I'm just interested to share this blog about why men would love Secret Garden? Secret Garden is a Korean drama which tells a story about a seems-to-be perfect man and a poor stunt woman. This drama is not like the others, I supposed. And it became one of my favorite dramas.

When the pilot episode was shown in the Philippines, I watched it and tweet every moment. But I'm spoiled so I buy DVD copy and finish it for weeks. I really loved the twists, the moments, the arguments, the love. Everything! It was an amazing drama ever. Hahahaha. And I'm soooo much hooked with the main character Hyun Bin. He also played at other dramas before like Kim Sam Soon (that was also shown in the Philippines) and A Millionaire's First Love that I watched months ago. Anyway, we're getting far, so here's the link: Why Men Would Love Secret Garden. Credits to http://otayamin.wordpress.com/ and kudos for loving SeGa soooo much!

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Graduate Batch 2011

"O Jesus, in deepest night and agony, You spoke these words of trust and surrender to God the Father in Gethsemane. In love and gratitude I want to say in times of fear and distress 'My Father, I do not understand You, but I trust You.'"

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I graduated in High School five days ago. It was really a heart-breaking, torture farewell night. The graduation last for almost 6hours. If I could only stop the time, I would did . But I just can't. High School days is now really over. And we are on process of moving on. Looking forward for our College life. Hopefully, I wish I could make it on college and do it better than High School. I wish for my luck in academic. More hardships. So, more efforts to give. I learned that "life goes on" so we must go with the flow. That's how it works.

After the graduation we ate our late dinner at a popular fast food chain. Then, we go home and rest. Honestly, I am happy for my my fellow graduates who had presents and parties from their parents. But at the same time, I felt very sad. Very sad because I am not one of them. I do not have a father who can give me a fabulous room make-over nor a mother who can cook for me to enjoy my special night. I only have myself. And my willingness to enjoy and survive this life. Yes, I desire to be one of these people who enjoyed and actually enjoying their wealthy lives. But maybe in time. In God's will. Maybe, it's just their time now. And someday, I hope my time will come.

"My Father, I trust You."

Mind my Business. Ü

When I think I'm giving up, I used to pray to Him and cry my tears

Supposedly, I opened my site for blogging intentions (as usual). I want to share my thoughts about death penalty but I changed my mind. This is my blog. I can do whatever I want.

I'm not just facing two choices.. I face none. I don't really know what to do right now. I can't blame them, it's not their faults. And I can't also blame myself. I did nothing.. nothing wrong at all. But then, I feel so... usfkdbmieb bl;wsdp[v :'( I DON'T KNOW.

Mind my Business. Ü

The clock is ticking

Tomorrow I will have my entrance exam in Bulacan State University. Monday and Tuesday is my final examination in San Diego Parochial School. Come on hya! You need to review, the clock is ticking! Aaaaaaaaah! :/

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God Alone Never Despises Anyone

Ang sabi ko sa Twitter account ko hindi ako magsusulat ngayong araw. Bigo? Palagay ko, oo. Naisip ko kasi bigla na sa tuwing sobrang saya o sobrang lungkot ng nangyayari e palagi na lang hindi ko ikinukwento. Masyado akong maingat sa pagbitiw ng salita dito. Pero sige, pagbibigyan ko ang sarili ko ngayon. Katuparan lang para sa mga gusto kong mangyari.

Today is the last first friday in our senior year. Simple but memorable.

Fr. Roman Caleon, our retreat master was the guest priest in out parish a little while ago. He was the one who lectured as at the Holy Mass. Super fantastic! I really like him when he speak on the microphone and tell what he wants... the flow was really good. Relaxing yet not boring. Then, after the mass he visit us on our homeroom. We perfected the time and asked him to help us with our little problem inside the room. So, they called our adviser. Then, we listen to Fr. Caleon's singing, preaching, and many more. He told us never to forget this part of life and we must treasure it, I think. Then, our class president, adviser, and father gave their final words. It was a limited but touching time. An ordinary day turns out to become an important day. One of the important days in our senior year.

Mind my Business. Ü

The good and the bad: Part 3.

Tuesday | December 28, 2010

4 days before 2011.

SEPTEMBER 2010. Can’t recall. Can’t recall. Can’t recall.

AUGUST 2010. Madami sa mga kakilala ko ang may birthday. Unfortunately, I didn’t have presents to any of them. Haha. August. Really random month.

August 5, 2010. My 5 months old cellphone was snatched. Aw. I don’t want to talk about it. *sigh*

August 7, 2010. This is it. THIS IS REALLY IS IT. Hahahahahaha. It was the UPCAT day. I’m one of the 60,000+ who took up the University of the Philippines College Admission Test. Gawd. It’s really... Ugh. I’m.. I’m speechless. Haha, kidding.

Well, did you know that I’m one of those ‘early birds’? I’m afraid to come late and failed to take the test. J After few hours of waiting, someone found me while I’m standing on the corridor. Finally, I got someone whom I can talk up to. It’s AJ, he’s a batch mate. He’s also there to take the UPCAT. Then, after exchanging some talks the proctor told us to fall in line.

We start the examination. It was Language Proficiency, Science, Mathematics, and Reading Comprehension. Just think of how much my mind was tortured before it got to those boring paragraphs. Urgh... Haha. That was my first entrance test in college and to be honest, I’m really pressure. It was a time-pressure exam.

August 27, 2010. We won the 1^st place in Buwan ng Wika’s Talking Tableau. If you want to watch the winning piece of our section, here’s the link.

August 31, 2010. =’(

JULY 2010. Of course, I’m excited for my birthday! Hahaha. Well, it was posted here. By the way, it’s also my friends’ birthdays. July 1 for Steven and July 3 for Luziel.

Mind my Business. Ü

Pamilya?

Found this on Ann Li's plixi. "Ang Magagawa ko Upang Mapaunlad Ang Aking Pamilya." Haaay, => All about FAMILY. *sigh* I miss my parents, both of THEM. I miss my mother, her sweetness, her cares, her lullabies, everything. I miss my father, whom (I thought) I can look up to no matter how tall I get.

Everything changes. Some are for us, the rest is for someone else's... Well, I never blame anyone for what's happening in this troublesome world.
Off to the topic. Christmas is coming! I feel the fog, the decorations, the smell of delicious foods, and everything! But I'm completely incomplete at all. I have NO family. The best thing about Christmas, FAMILY. I don't have my parents or some reliable relatives here. Haay, house is not a home at all, freaking bad! The only thing I have now is my S&F. My sister and friends. They are the only two or more persons whom I can call, family. In heart but not in blood. Well, they are my family even they were not connected with me that much. I love them!

I'm becoming baroque again. Hahahaha.

Mind my Business.Ü

Oo.

Dear Blogger,

Matagal na din ako sa kawalan pero habang nakasara ang bibig ko at maingay na sumisigaw ang utak ko, may isang bagay na pumasok sa isip ko -- ang pagiging abogado. Nalaman ko na hindi pala ko pwede sa ganitong trabaho. Oo, alam ko ang responsibilidad nila at ang dapat nilang ginagawa sa parehong paraan na alam ko ding hindi ko kayang harapin ang sinasabi ko. Hindi ko kayang humawak ng kaso. Madalas akong nagbibilang ng bituin at nag-iisip ng mga bagay-bagay hanggang sa pumasok ang lalim ng pang-unawa ko sa mga bagay na kaya ko pero hindi ko mapaninindigan. Hindi ko mahawakan ang sarili kong kaso at ang hirap. Nakapanglulungkot nga lang, dahil napakarami kong sagot sa kaso ng iba. =|

Mind my Business.Ü

And this is what I am.

Dear Blogger,

I haven't been updated for two weeks. :( So busy, projects, activities, examinations -flood. We only have 5 months left, can I still survive? Well, I hope so. Difficulties come and go, hardships keep me from pain but I never leave them unfinished. I am so stressed right now, people around can help me but not all the time. A deeper side of mine reveals and they don't even understand. I am so depressed. My emotions eat me little by little, I don't even know if it's all in the mind. I am so exhausted. I leave the house before the sun sets and I went home without this Pebo. Well, I just want to break the silence that keep me from punishments. Tonight, I will try my very best to become even better. Everyday, I wanted to become stronger. I want the fullest for I can make my Mama really proud. I do this because of them, they are the only persons that can give colors to my life. I know, probably I can be 'someone' on the future. Discipline, responsibility, and intelligence. They can help me to get on the top of the pyramid. With God, everything can possibly happened if we would believed. I love my schooling and I won't give up. I just need to find some stuffs that I can strongly rely on especially people, everything around my side. Everything.

Yours truly,

Mind my Business.Ü

Right here with Nothing

Dear Blogger,

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na nagsusulat ka, pero alam mo sa sarili mo na hindi yun para sa'yo? Ang hirap no! Haay. Nakakainis pa 'don walang nangyayari sa buhay mo. Wala kang ginagawa, wala ring maisip yung utak mo. Parang tumigil yung imahinsayon mo para makasulat ng mga bagay-bagay na gusto mo. Ewan ko bakit madalas ko 'to maranasan. Naiinip lang siguro ko sa buhay ko dahil wala masyadong gulo sa sirkulasyon nito. Minsan mas okay pa nga yun e. Madalas hindi.

Eff. Di ko maintihan yung sarili ko ngayon. Haha. gusto ko lang mamahagi ng nararamdaman ko at alam kong mapagbibigyan ako ng sarili ko gamit ng Blogger ko.

Sa ngayon, marami pa 'kong bagay-bagay na dapat at kailangang gawin pero hindi ko gusto kaya hindi ko magawa. Katulad nung bali-balita na may isusulat ako, nawalan na yata ko ng oras, damdamin para sa isusulat 'yon, at tinta ng mga ballpen na gagamitin ko? Pero tignan mo yung dahilan ko hindi mauubos. Kitams? Ganito na lang, bilang pagpapahalaga sa palabra de honor tatapusin ko ang nasabing "kwento" bago matapos ang taon. (Yes! Matagal pa ang taning ko.) Promise.

Yours Truly,
Mind my Business. Ü